At some point I tripped and fell out of my life. Probably December. Not that I’ve not accomplished anything of note, but that I’ve not accomplished anything that relates to my big five. I’ve been wallowing in a general feeling of blah for most of this time, made worse by the perceived lack of progress and the first anniversary of me graduating and realizing I am in the same position I was at this point last year.
And now I’m suffering from post-con blues. Nothing is worse than coming home from a convention and having the reality of the real world crush you. It also marks the end of the thing that has been taking up all my time for the past month: making costumes. I’ve spent so much time working on the five (!) that I made for this year’s Anime North that I can’t remember what I did with myself before anymore.
I want to take some steps today, because I really don’t feel like being down in the dumps (who does?) but my mood is such that I just can’t think of what I can do that will make my day go well. Nothing can compete with the joy of random strangers squealing with joy when they see you dressed as their favourite character and needing half an hour to walk across a parking lot because of all the requests for pictures. Or being able to loudly proclaim your geekdom with no one batting an eye. *sigh*
So decisions to make: Do I spend today eating ice cream and scouring the internet for photos people took of our costumes, or do I make my bed, tidy my room, practice my cello, and get on with my life?